My thoughts right now

I wish you weren't so nice to me.

Just to make me stop liking you so much.

I wish you would ignore me.

Just to stop me from hoping.

I wish you were mean to me.

Just so I'd remember the past.

I wish I never met you.

Just so that I wouldn't know what I lost.

I wish I never came here.

Just so that it would be easier to handle.

I wish I was never born.

Just so that I could stop hurting like this.

I wish you could see me for who I am.

Just so that I'd know that all hope was lost.